07 January 2008


They say everyone's got a twin. I was either walking down memory lane today, or just doing more people-watching than usual, because I saw them by the hundreds.

First, walking in to the gym, I saw a woman with a young blonde child who was a ringer for my cousin J. She passed away more than two years ago. I stopped in the parking lot, took a deep breath, and looked again. I've had that happen before, where I think I see someone who I know isn't with us anymore, and when I look again, they look nothing like my loved one. This woman could have used J's driver's license and gotten away with it.

I can't help but wonder if that will ever, ever, not hurt as much as it still does. Because I saw her and almost called out, "Hey cuz!" and realized all over again that she's gone. Damn.

Then while working out, I was on a treadmill where you overlook the main entrance from one story above, like you're the eye in the sky. I saw my Swedish Papa who IS still among the living, a duplicate of what he looked like almost 20 years ago. It wasn't him, of course, and I know that, but man, this guy could have passed for him.

What gives?

1 comment:

Dawna said...

Yeah, life is strange that way.

RYC: Just so ya know, my ISP is shitty, so sometimes my hits come up as a bunch of "unknown" and "???". Drives me batty 'cause it'll even hit my own hit tracker even though I have mine ignored.

It is always very disconcerting when ya get hits from out of nowhere... like they've just found your site out of some paper book and typed it in.